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Enlightenment: The Ultimate Possibility

Authenticity, Chakras, Divinity, Ego, KRIYAS Meditation, kundalini, kundalini awakening, Yoga, self realization, GuruSarvasmarana Ananda Ma NithyaComment

Enlightenment is like winning the Cosmic lottery and everyone can partake in this grand celebration. It is not biased or limited for only a few fortunate individuals - it is for all us because we contain it already inside of each and every one of us. The best way to describe enlightenment is being in the highest space of our optimum potential and utilizing it in all areas of our every day life. The good news is it’s available to all of us there is no special membership requirements or dues that need to be paid.

 

My 'Hyster-y' is Over

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I have been waiting to have a hysterectomy for 6 months (technically it should have been much sooner) and now the saga is finally over. This has been my 'story' for way too long and now I over-joyed to let it go once in for all literally. I been suffering with heavy menstrual periods since the age of 15 years old until recently when the whole situation hit the breaking point. I bled non stop for 3 months straight and had to be admitted into the hospital for a massive blood transfusion. I had a large non cancerous fibroid tumor camping inside of my uterus which it had made it's home. The fibroid was growing rapidly and causing more and more pain and discomfort, not to mention an extended belly the size of a six month old pregnant women. I was told in late 2011 that surgery was the only solution for this problem. I refused to accept this as final so I researched natural remedies, herbs, juicing, and self healing. Nothing worked and now the situation has reached it's peak and I cannot live like this any longer. I have had severe anemia for years and was constantly fatigued, dizzy and weak. I did not know what it was like to have energy at all anymore and I was tired of being tired.

I don't know if you have ever seen pictures of fibroids but they aren't pretty in fact they are down right ugly looking. They are huge balls of tissue living off your blood and nutrient supply. Living with a fibroid or fibroids is like living with demons inside. I felt like this thing was literally sucking the life force (prana) out of me not only physically but energetically big time. It was long over due time and it had to come out because I was tired of it ruling my life. Any longer and I would have to charge it rent. 

Right after the blood transfusion I fully expected to have an immediate surgery but to no avail it did not happen. I had all sorts of test including a biopsy and now all I had to do was wait for the results. So I did, that took weeks then it turned out I had to have another one because they did not take enough tissue the first time. Once again I waited weeks then got those results which were the same as the first one benign. From that point I continued to wait and wait for them to call me to schedule a date. Finally the call came and I had only little over a week to prepare. The irony of the whole thing is I had been preparing myself mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually but when the date was actually approaching I was like 'oh shit' I have to do this. Even though I knew it was coming the fact that it was only one more week away turned out to be a benefit, less time to freak out.

So I got busy and started preparing my body. I started by doing Shankprakshalana Kriya (intestinal wash) to clean out my intestines so the plumbing would be run smoother after the surgery. I also gave up coffee because it was just intensifying 

the anxiety and fear plus I did not want to have coffee withdrawals on the day of the surgery on top of the event itself. Looking back now that was a smart move on my part. I also drank tons of green juice every single day and ate more kale than most people can tolerate. Did lot's of yoga because it would be quite a long time before I can move my body that again, took long walks, kriyas, and meditation. 

The day before the surgery I started noticing something very strange it felt like I was in dream and was experiencing a feeling of 'no identity' quite frequently. This all happened up until the last moment until I went under the anesthesia, I was so amazed at how calm I was. The fear was there but not over powering me, it felt so surreal. The only thing I kept hearing in my head over and over during the whole thing was "just keep surrendering to the experience". So I did and I did not suffer at all. My whole intention before hand was to not wake up in pain and I did not, in fact the entire time it was managed. 

When I was back in my room I felt so blissful (not sure if it was the good drugs or what) and extremely happy. That evening and the next day I spent with friends laughing quite a lot. Mostly making uterus jokes. Laughing is good medicine but not good for the belly but it did not stop me. Before leaving the 'Castle' (hospital) my doctor came in and said the surgery itself took four hours and my uterus was BIGGER than a cantaloupe! 

Dang, I knew it was big but not that big! Needless to say I was so relieved to get that thing out of me once and for all. The funny thing was they kept bringing cantaloupe for each meal so when I got home I was still craving it. We made jokes that my body was missing it's 'friend'.  

I believe our cells hold memories and out of these memories if they are not pleasant can be the root causes of our diseases and illnesses in the body. For me this area had undergone abuse, trauma, pain, neglect, hatred, shame, guilt and anger so my body created this tumor complied of negative energy and it had to be removed physically from my body. I just 'knew' instinctively or intuitively that once this thing was removed I was going to be a new being. It was one thing to deal with the physical issues but energetically I was really looking forward to getting rid of this thing.

It is said the uterus is the seat of creativity because it gives birth literally. My uterus never gave birth to anything. The only thing that made me sad was I was still dying to express myself creatively. Now that the fibroid is gone I feel like all that negative energy is gone and now I can more forward with a fresh start and a new lease on life. It's as if the impediment is is now gone and I feel lighter and free.  

Not only did I face massive fears I had about hospitals, doctors, needles, tubes, cutting and the intrusiveness on the body but I gained trust in myself. I learned that I am much stronger than I thought I was and so is my body. I really can handle it and I did and it was much easier than I thought it would be. My mind made out to be this scary horrible thing and it wasn't. It was very doable and honestly I really even didn't feel discomfort everything was managed nicely. 

So much power comes in facing our fears so much trust in ourselves and the Universe happen. 

I also noticed that I did not have any 'trauma' over the surgery, hangover or in- completion. I didn't even have that hospital smell but I did smell like fried chicken but a shower took care of that. 

In fact I feel like I completed something huge. Put something to rest once and for all. My fear has disappeared and in order for it to disappear one has to courageously face it and walk through the door only to come out on the other side transformed. 

So many lessons occurred on this journey. I learned to trust myself and my body exclusively and not rely on someone else to supply that strength or approval. All this gave me strength and belief in myself which i never had before. I healed all my feelings of self hatred, guilt, shame and abuse and i learned to love my body and ask for forgiveness for all the unloving things I said and did to it. 

So much immense gratitude for all my amazing friends for their love and support. A few of them even shared their home, their food and their hearts with me during this time. I was overjoyed and showered with so much love. 

I know i am in a good space now that it is all said and done. I feel my story has been laid to rest and now I can move on to other things much bigger things like reinstating my life with new energy and vigor. It feels as if $10,000 million pounds has been lifted off of me and I am liberated like so much karma has been burned. I feel like a new being. Now I have crossed over to 'the other side' as we say in Hyster Sisterville   .  Feels good to have arrived and to have let go of all that 'hyster-y' once and for all. 

 

 

 

Wealth Consciousness

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“Darkness is the fulfillment energy, the creative energy, from which you took birth.” ~Paramahamsa Nithyananda

When the mere utterance of the the words wealth, money, prosperity or abundance are brought up all sorts of things can come up for us. For some of us it may be positive and others it may be negative. Through conditioning or accumulated engrams guilt might be might be an unconscious thread in our concepts of wealth. There have been many misconceptions that having money is a sin when in all actuality the real sin is the guilt. Guilt can be an impediment to our spiritual growth. Guilt has absolute no value, it is simply evaluating our past actions and decisions with our updated intelligence. We might be feeling guilty for having wealth and guilt for not having it as well. Either way we loose. If Existence is intelligence and we are a reflection of Existence then therefore we are one and the same, there is no difference. We are continuously creating whether it be consciously or unconsciously. Our wealth can be equated to the life energy we are expressing. The more life energy we have the more we are creating in the terms of wealth. If wealth is not expressing in us then we have the wrong understanding about life therefore our actions will not be focused. If Source or Hiranyagarbha (Cosmic Womb) is intelligence and we are a representation of that which exists then we can manifest any idea therefore it will become a reality. The benefits of awakening the kundalini shakti is whatever thought, word or deed that is presented while having a kundalini experience will manifest. eN Kriya is the vehicle to awaken our kundalini shakti and unleash our unlimited and hidden potential. eN Kriya is a technique which purifies our entire system by removing engrams and creating tremendous energy in us to be utilized in the highest possible coherence. Thus we become co-creators with Existence and imbibe the ultimate wealth consciousness. Real wealth is the ability to achieve what we want in the inner and outer world. When we emphasize our focus on the inner world then we start reaping the benefits in the outer world and automatically wealth starts expressing itself through us. Laxmi starts showering. When we know the science of manifestation is is called lila (Divine play). Wealth is like a current and only when it is flowing it can be considered wealth.