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Why I Decided to Stop Selling Myself

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Recently I had a "come to Jesus moment" when my boss asked me how I felt about promoting sales for the food we sell being that I am a vegan.

 Currently I am working in what Marie Forleo calls a “bridge job”. A job that pays the bills while I work on creating my own enterprise. I was okay with that until my boss backed me into a corner. Immediately I had to do an internal scan of whether or not this job was in alignment with my integrity and authenticity as an evolving conscious being. It clearly wasn’t and I needed to change that ASAP. 

Refusing to Let Go of Karmic Baggage

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I have moved a lot and every time I move I get rid of things. I have narrowed it down to all that I own fits in my car and I have a small volkswagen Beetle and it's packed at that. Somehow still to me that is too much but I am unwilling to let it all go at the same time if that makes any sense. I cannot let it go because I have a serious attachment to the stuff. I have a deep fear that I may need it someday or I may not be ok without it. Today while I was packing because I am moving again (I do that a lot) across the country I got the click that all still stuff I am lugging around from place to place is symbolic of all the karmic baggage I am carrying. All the outworn, disempowering mental patterns I am holding onto which form the basis of my so called identity. None of this stuff I really need but I hold onto 'in case' and all it does is weigh me down heavily. I am afraid to let go of it because who would I be if I just unloaded it? Would I be ok? Would I be safe and taken care of? Why is it so comforting to be hanging on to this stuff? Even though this stuff causes me pain literally by schlepping it around all over the place I still continue to do. The same way all these old patterns cause me discomfort but I keep holding on to them allowing them to limit me. 

While all this is going on I am reminded that enlightenment can happen in an instant if I just let go of my identity for just one second but I keep holding onto my identity because it's scary and I don't know any different. Sounds so ridiculous like why would I hold onto this, it's so limiting and suffocating but yet I continue. This is where Maya is nicely doing her job by telling me who would I be if I did not have this safe, cozy identity. There are so many times when I just want to let go and say I don't need this stuff why can't you just trust everything you need will be provided for you at the right time. The same way with enlightenment if I just let go, everything and beyond is sitting right inside of me. However, once again the attachment of fear takes precedence and I continue to lug my crap around everywhere I go. How long is it going to take for me to get completely exhausted and just finally let it drop? I guess when I finally realize this crap is not serving my anymore and it's time to move on. I have always been the 'slow kid' so until I have had enough it looks like gradual enlightenment has to be for now unfortunately. 


Two Words that Can Destroy Your Life: "It's Okay."

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Two Words that Can Destroy Your Life: “It’s Okay.”


The words we utter are a direct reflection of who we think we are.

When reflecting deeply on your own life, how many times have you uttered defeatist words while procrastinating or trying to dodge some responsibility?

For instance, say you made a declaration to wake up one hour early every day to start a yoga practice or start a new exercise regimen. You start out with such enthusiasm and vigor, but on day three when the alarm goes off, you instead mutter to yourself, “it’s okay.” You roll over and go back to sleep with the presumption that tomorrow you will start again.

How about when you decide to start eating healthier, only to reach for a bag of chips or chocolate (not that I have anything against chocolate) after a stressful day? We fall, not only off the wagon, but into guilt. I don’t know about you, but I cannot have just one. The whole bag must be consumed.

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When We Continually Hit the “Snooze Button” of Life

Self-destruction is disguised in these two little insidious words: “It’s okay.”

In the beginning these justifications all start out very small and innocent, but the magnitude and impact they have on our consciousness can be detrimental.  Once we accept failure, it becomes acceptable and easier to continue the habit of breaking commitments to others and ourselves.

How many times have these words gotten you into serious trouble?

It’s okay, I am just doing a little harmless flirting with my co-worker. Before you know it, you’re having a full fledged affair and in so deep you can’t get out without others being hurt. Maybe you were going through a rough time in your life financially and you needed a little extra cash. It’s okay, I can just take a little money out of the cash register now to get me through. Next thing you know, you’re fired and charged with stealing.

“It’s okay” becomes a continuous, unconscious mantra which we live by.

People start losing trust in us and we start losing trust in ourselves. We start carrying a deep resentment inside. This is how the pattern of failure begins: we lose an inner sense of integrity. Integrity means honoring the words we utter to ourselves and to others. Some of us may be very good at keeping our commitment to others but when it comes to ourselves, we cheat with the “it’s okay” attitude.

This puts us in a continual state that lacks authenticity, where we can’t live to our full potential. We start tolerating our inauthenticity; thus becoming insensitive to authenticity.

How do we regain trust ourselves?

By finding integrity with the words we utter. Honoring them no matter what.

Our words are our life. We are the manifestation of our thoughts. We have the power to create a magnificent life and relationship with others. When we trust our self, we trust life and when we trust life, we trust existence.

Satsang Living in the Company of Truth

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Satsang is the thread of yogic and spiritual life for the sadhaka or seeker. Sat means ‘truth’ and sang means ‘association’. Together it means association of truth or in the company of truth. In the highest definition it means living in complete awareness of the truth with one’s being, being fully submerged in every action and incident in life. Satsang also means where seekers of truth gather in the presence of their guru, spiritual teacher, sage, yogi or saint. Participating in a satsang can bring about conscious and unconscious  changes in your being. It can inspire you, change your attitude and open up new vistas and horizons that you were unable to see before. You may even see new meaning and potential in you life. Your life starts to take on a whole new perspective with all sorts of promising avenues. You might think how can this happen just sitting in the company of other seekers? Well, it is the energy vibrations of guru or sage that work on a much more subtle level. He or she is psychic battery or energy transformer that directly transform your psychic battery and being. If you are just receptive these changes will take place whether you are aware of it or not. Just by false beliefs and conditioning our mind has a tendency to remain stuck in ruts or negative patterns. These are compared to ‘knots’ in your being and these knots cannot be removed by ourselves. In order to overcome these belief systems we need the aid of sage or wise one who is capable of taking us beyond these limited concepts we carry about ourselves. Simply just sitting in the presence of the Master or sage can be enough. Sometimes he or she will say something significant or insignificant or even they may not say anything at all it may just take one look and something in our being just registers without our knowledge. All the sudden our mind is shaken into a new reality and we start to take on new directions in our life. Satsangs have been recording since the beginning of time. Some of the sages were Scorates, Christ, Krishna of the battlefield with Arjuna and Buddha have all been known to conduct satsang. One of my favorites is Valmiki the author of Ramayana he in my opinion is an excellent example of transformation. Before his enlightenment he was a highway robber. One day when he was hiding in the jungle a sage by the name of Narada was passing through at this moment Valmiki approached him to rob him. Narada immediately engaged in conversation with Valimiki questioning his motives. Valmiki was not a spiritual person and was a pessimist he had all sorts of doubts. Through a course of time it was one statement that Narada said to Valmiki that changed his whole life thus he became enlightened. When we attend satsang even if there are parts of our being which are resistant there is a part also which is thirsting for the truth that is beyond our logic or comprehension. When we start communing with the deeper layers of our being we become in tune with a force which is higher than our self. Our consciousness expands and everything becomes a beautiful communion.





The Road Signs Along The Way

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I have always been one of those people who when things get to much or I am feeling overwhelmed I want to run away on vacation or hide in my cave, meaning not wanting to get out of bed. I experienced a lot of stressful situations in my life and got to the point of complete burnout and chronic fatigue. After taking many programs with Swamiji and living at the ashram for 6 months my being underwent a complete overhaul. Before I got there I felt so tired and beaten down from life I just wanted a rest and a long one at that. Little did I know that the path of enlightenment or self realization includes a process or self purification which is tapasya (tapasya is a means of purification. It’s a process of elimination which cleanses our mental and emotional bodies of deep rooted engrams or samskaras.) and for each of us this word can mean different things. For some it may come in the form of yoga, sitting in meditation, pranayama, or even depression. When our mind says we need a break, yes, we need a break. Our mind needs to be broken.  We need a break in the root. This is the only way a particular habit or engram can be destroyed is by the psychic root. Just by trying to do it on the conscious level is not enough.

After undergoing a steady diet of meditation and tapasya I have never felt better in my life. I have more energy, enthusiasm and am experiencing higher levels of productivity.

Living enlightenment can be doing things we don’t want. If we can receive our suffering as prasadam or the nectar as poison (what we think is as poison) then we will be supplied the energy we need for the rest of the journey. I know it’s tempting to get off at the nearest rest stop and take a break that would be so much easier. But if we can just continue on our journey despite of what our mind says eventually it will disappear.

Enlightenment is not a destination but it is part of our destiny. It is a continuous expansion of our being.